sleep

I have sleep on the brain these days- mostly b/c I am not getting enough of it! monday and tuesday were really awful and then wed- OMG!!! James and Xander both slept through the night and I woke up on my own before my alarm. I had a momentary panic attack that something had happen and went flying into the living room (where James was asleep in the swing...) but everyone was still breathing so I went back and laid down some more. I felt like a totally new woman Thursday..now of course I am exhausted again but hey one day of a non sleep-deprived me was enough for now! It is truly amazing to me how much difference an uninterrupted night of sleep can make in your life.

My friend and I were talking about this the other day and we came to the consesnus that no matter how people try to describe to you how sleep deprivation truly feels- you just don't get it until you are living it! The sad part is that James ia already better than he was when he was a newborna nd yet I almost feel more tired now. I guess the difference is that now I have to work and I can't just nap whenever- although with both boys that doesn't always work out in my favor and yet the days that i am truly exhausted and feel like I am not going to survive without a nap are usually the days that they both sleep at the same time- they must know.... beware mommy is on the edge we both have to nap at the same time to dya or we're all going to pay.... I wonder if they can actaully talk to each other.

So I finally broke the 200 lb mark- now lets hope I can keep it that way. I finished my 30 day challenge on the Wii Active and have fallen off the bandwagon a bit. I hadn't missed a day on the Fit in a montha nd I have missed 2 this week. Plus I have only worked out like 2x this week. I really meant to yesterday but again with the tired.... I'm going to go home and crawl right into bed today- no sending kids and husbands off to daycare and work so that means I should hopefully egt at least an hour extra of sleep and I don't have to leave the house a 1/2 hour early so... that should hopefully give me enough time to work out. I'm planning on starting a new 30 day challenge so hopefully that will keep me motivated. 7 lbs down, 48 to go... of course really my goal is just to lose the 10 lbs I set my goal for on the Wii Fit- I think I have another month or so to make that happen. I CAN DO IT! maybe when I am not so tired...