I have seriously lost my mojo! I have been stuck at 188 for like a month now and I haven't felt great about blogging about it so no blogging no wieght lost just loss of energy and pep! I think a lot fo it has to do with me not feeling so great about work these days. I have been feeling really stressed at my job- a lot due to being really short staffed and constantly feeling like I am doing a terrible jb taking care of my patients. IAlso though it's been not great for awhile and the continued not-greatness has put me into this funk of realizing that it will prbably be not great for a long time to come. We'e at the point now where thery are going to strat requiring mandatoray overtime and on-call in addition to our regularly scheduled hours. I'm so not up for that and I have been working a lot of extra shifts already so it is just so frustrating to me that despite all of my extra hard work we are all getting the shaft b/c the hosital is too damn cheap to hire a traveller- apparently it is more cost effective to drive your staff nurses into the ground with too much work. It also doesn't help that we are suffering the curse of the night shift where basically you just feel neglected. I haven't seen the manager in months b/c she is never here during night sihft hours- the perks of being a mananger I guess. I have my annual review next week and I am really wondering how she is planning on reviewing me when she hasn't even spoken to me in 2 months and that was at a staff meeting, not when I was working. I must find someway to shed the crankiness.
Anyway so there is that at work and then we had Xander's birthday party and then we went to my 10 yr college reunion and the list goes on...I just feel like life is so busy and hectic that anytime I have to "myself" must be spent cleaning and cooking and doing laundry and I can't seem to find enough hours in the day to do all that and exercise and sleep and maybe have soem time in my sewing room. It is all a trade off and unfortunetly the part that has been losing out is the exercise. I keep choosing to sleep instead! I ahve been doing ok with eating wekk which is why I haven't gained weight but I would like to keep it coming off. 2 more lbs and I'll be at 20 lost- which is seriously pathetic considering it has taken me 6 months to lose 18 lbs but slow and steady and manageable wins the race right!?!
So here's my plan - Frank has a job inteview on Tues and fingers crossed he gets it..then we can afford (or I will cram into the budget) a way to have someone come and clean my house 2x a month so that the constant pig sty in which I live (and causes me a ton of frustartion) will ease, plsu the kids will be back in daycare and not at home with daddy who as much as I love him is THE WORST housekeeper EVER. He complains about me (and I'm not great) but he is awful and Xander is capable of destrying the house in 2 seconds flat, especially when you don't pay attention to what he is doing. Plus if Frank is working we will be forced to get on a better and more consistent schedule- which is a constant struglle with me working night shift- but that isn't going to change anytime soon so we will have to live with it. Plus baseball is almost over which will free Frank up some more to actually get some stuff done around the house. I've got my calendar and my cookbooks and tonight I am planning a menu for the next month so that I domy shopping and have a plan so that we have nice, healthy food stocking our fridge! and no more crappy meals b/c I'm to tired to cook or come up with a meal plan, everything will eb there and ready to go!
I just had yearly lab work done and my cholesterol is high- only a tiny bit but high cholesterol is something that runs in the family so I need to get a handle on that now. In great news though my triglycerides are half what they were last year(they were out of control high)! but my chol is up a bit from then so another trade off but I think I made much better strides in getting my triglycerides down then I lost in my chol being up a bit. So keep working on being healthy and maybe by next year all my numbers will be normal! Healthy summer here we come!