workout woes

So I was doing so well with working out at least 4 times a week and recently- holy cow I have been terrible! I keep choosing sleep over working out but the really sad part about it is that I want to work out...I feel better on the days that I do work out but I can't seem to drag my bum out of bed to make it happen! Or like today I fully had ever intention of working out and then I totally slept through my alarm (ear plugs and my alarm apparently don't work well together...) so I was completely late to work! So I don't have to work again until next wed- well I don't have to work a full shift again till next wed so.... I'm planning on getting back into the work out groove. I did make it to the YMCA this week for Group Power so I will go again next week. Sat we are going to ice skating with my nieces and nephews so that is a least a plan for some non "working out" working out if you know what I mean. It is going to be a busy, busy few days but I think I can manage to squeeze into some working out- we'll call it my quality time to take care of myself.

Mel gave me the WW point booklet so my next goal is to work on writing down what I am eating. I bought the journal so that was step one, now I actually have to remember to write in it!

sleep

I have sleep on the brain these days- mostly b/c I am not getting enough of it! monday and tuesday were really awful and then wed- OMG!!! James and Xander both slept through the night and I woke up on my own before my alarm. I had a momentary panic attack that something had happen and went flying into the living room (where James was asleep in the swing...) but everyone was still breathing so I went back and laid down some more. I felt like a totally new woman Thursday..now of course I am exhausted again but hey one day of a non sleep-deprived me was enough for now! It is truly amazing to me how much difference an uninterrupted night of sleep can make in your life.

My friend and I were talking about this the other day and we came to the consesnus that no matter how people try to describe to you how sleep deprivation truly feels- you just don't get it until you are living it! The sad part is that James ia already better than he was when he was a newborna nd yet I almost feel more tired now. I guess the difference is that now I have to work and I can't just nap whenever- although with both boys that doesn't always work out in my favor and yet the days that i am truly exhausted and feel like I am not going to survive without a nap are usually the days that they both sleep at the same time- they must know.... beware mommy is on the edge we both have to nap at the same time to dya or we're all going to pay.... I wonder if they can actaully talk to each other.

So I finally broke the 200 lb mark- now lets hope I can keep it that way. I finished my 30 day challenge on the Wii Active and have fallen off the bandwagon a bit. I hadn't missed a day on the Fit in a montha nd I have missed 2 this week. Plus I have only worked out like 2x this week. I really meant to yesterday but again with the tired.... I'm going to go home and crawl right into bed today- no sending kids and husbands off to daycare and work so that means I should hopefully egt at least an hour extra of sleep and I don't have to leave the house a 1/2 hour early so... that should hopefully give me enough time to work out. I'm planning on starting a new 30 day challenge so hopefully that will keep me motivated. 7 lbs down, 48 to go... of course really my goal is just to lose the 10 lbs I set my goal for on the Wii Fit- I think I have another month or so to make that happen. I CAN DO IT! maybe when I am not so tired...

gaining weight

grrrr- I was doing so well, I had lost 6 whole lbs and now all of a sudden for no apparent reason I gained 2 of them back. You know if I had fallen off the bandwagon or eated horribly I could understand but for no apparent reason- it just irks me.

But today I finished my 30 day challenge onthe Wii, tomorrow I am off to Group Power at the Y, and Wed I will start an new 30 day challenge at the niext intensity level so we'll see if I can blast away some of this fat!

I just need to go and buy a cute notebook that will encourage me to write down what I am eating and a gril from work is going to tell em how many points a day I should be consuming so I can keep track.

trying not to be discouraged....but I am having terrible insomnia recently (an unfortunate side effect or wrking night shift, plus I am naturally a night owl) and my energy level is seriously in the toilet. I am going to make it through though and not let this slump ruin my newly formed exercise habit!

the 200 lbs mark

Try as I might I can't seem to break past the 200 lb mark. Today I was so darned close- the Wii says I weigh under 200 but my trusty ole scale said 200.0 exactly. Booger- it will come... I am so proud of myself for having lost 6 lbs already though. Now I just have to keep going. I have the working out at home going pretty well- I'm doing something almost every day. Now I need to focus more on the eating! I do well for a day or 2 and then I eat like cr*p. I need to find myself some sort of nice little notebook so I can write down everything that I eat so I can start having some accountability but... it is so hard sometimes to think that way. I'm hungry I eat... I must learn to make better food choices. I've been doing well with drinking a lot less soda but I crave it like you wouldn't believe. and I may be drinking less soda but I end up dinking more tea/coffee/hot cocoa to make up for it! So goals for the next few weeks are to keep up with the working out and to drink more water and eat more veggies. Someone told me the other day that it takes 3 months to learn new habits so I guess I have a ways to go!

Group Power!

So Tuesday I ventured to the YMCA for my first outing to an organized exercise class and it was actually a lot of fun..well as fun as working out can be I guess. Let's just say i felt pretty good at the end of the class- like I had really accomplished something. I failed miserably at the ab section - apparently 2 kids in 2 years has totally destroyed my abdominal muscles but I was able to complete almost every single other exercise and was pretty hyped up by the end of the class. then i went to pick Alexander up for his swim class- whoooo that was exhausting. I'm not sure who was more tired by the end of it me or him? We had lunch with Frank and then all came hoe and crashed!

Yesterday I worked out with the Wii Active and then today i took a rest day b/c I was so tired I just decided I needed the xtra hour of sleep! Tomorrow I will work out with the wii active again and then i need to look at the schedule for the YMCA next week b/c I can't make it to Group power tues morning b/c I have to work then... I'd like to try to make it to a different class though.

Back to work!

The List!

I feel like this is such a cliche but at the same time making a list of New years Resolutions is somehow cathartic. It gives me a chance to reflect over what has been going well in my life the past year and what I would like to change or improve. For better or worse (and here's hoping I can make it past the apparent 6 month average on most of these things...)

1. Be more active- and no chasing the kids around doesn't count! Workout/get out/do something physically strenuous 5 days a week. Make fitness a part of my life-for my sake and my children.
2. Eat more veggies.
3. Drink more water.
4. Drink less soda (as I sit here drinking a Coke zero...)
5. Take some time for me- realize that having time for myself will allow me to recharge and be a better mom in the long haul.
6. Take a shower by myself every day and if the kids start crying the minute the water goes on, then they will have to cry until I am done.
7. Learn how to make a Waldorf doll
8. Before going shopping make a list and then only buy what is on that list
9. Plan a menu and stick to it- eat out only when it is in the plan and the budget
10. Don't buy any more fabric until July 1st (unless I need it to make the above mentioned Waldorf Doll or a specific useful purposeful project.... not just because I like it)
11. Organize my sewing room
12. Make something with all the fabric that I already have and finish everything in the "unfinished project" box
13. Fix all the diapers that need fixing before James needs to be wearing them.
14. Clean my house top to bottom at least once a month
15. Try to convince Frank that cleaning should be somewhat of a priority in our lives
16. Plant a garden, mulch it, weed it, harvest it and then preserve that harvest
17. Somehow make sure that this years chicken survive! and ducks too...
18. Last but not least make some time for me and Frank just the two of use- in the bedroom and out.

Well I guess that is enough for now- I think I hit on all the big points. I am hoping that now both boys are going to bed about the same time and James is starting to sleep through the night more and more that I will have the time and energy to get some things done after they go to bed and therfore be able to focus on them while they are awake. That's the plan anyway.