Cliche but... my New Year Resolution is....

to be healthier! I have always been on the big side- never a skinny minny here but this has truly gotten ridiculous! I got down to my skinniest ever when I was in the PC- something about starving in Africa really helped the lbs fly off but once I cam back home.... Oh MY..I gained 70 lbs in no time and ended up with all kinds of new stretch marks from gaining weight too fast. Then weight watchers and I lost 40 lbs and was feeling pretty good about myself and then I got pregnant. Ballooned back up 50 lbs but figured hey after the baby is born I'll lose it again right? Well I did lose it but not all of it and then... got pregnant again. So here I am 3 months after baby #2 and I am officially fat, fat, fat. It is a hard truth to look in the mirror and realize that you absolutely hate the way you look. I'm somewhat disgusted with myself- actually I am really disgusted with myself and yet I can never seem to find the motivation to eat the way I should, exercise the way I should, and lose that extra weight.

So this year I am not making a resolution to lose weight but to be more healthy, more active, eat more veggies, and drink more water (as I currently am downing my second coke of the day...I'm a work in progress!. So far I have started on the being more active. I gave Frank the Wii Active for his birthday (in September...) and last week we both decided it was time so we challenged each other to the 30 day challenge and have been trying to make an effort to work out every day- or at least most every day. So far we have been doing pretty good and have worked out lamost every day (we took Christmas day off!). I didn't work out today b/c I ran out of time before I had to go to work and I have to say I am feeling more tired and sluggish tonight than I have on other nights when I have taken the time to workout. So for Christmas Frank gave me the Wii Fit Plus (we already have the Wii Fit) and my personal goal for myself is to workout 5 days out of 7. It doesn't have to be a long workout but at least 15-20 minutes where I get my behind moving.

Then I have to convince myself that taking time for myself doesn't make me a bad mom- in fact it is going to make me a better mom because I will have more energy and be less cranky- or that is the thought anyway! So once a week I am taking Xander to the YMCA to go to swim class and before/after his swim class he is getting dropped off at the child watch so I can go work out by myself for an hour. And when we are at home it is ok if he sits in the highchair with a snack so I can workout without him under my feet!

Oh yeah and housework...well it is ok if my kitchen is a mess and it takes me 4 days to do the laundry. I'm not wonder woman and it isn't going to kill us if the house is messy. This is going to be the hardest for me b/c I can't stand the clutter. I'm trying to let go of it but I absolutely cannot handle it when the house is a total pig sty. It honestly gives me insomnia. I can't let it be I have to get up and deal with it. So I am slowly working on clearing the clutter, getting rid of what we don't need/use and making homes for as much stuff as I possibly can so that I don't have to listen to the grumbling about not knowing where to put stuff. I've gone a little crazy with the label maker but... whatever works! Oh yeah and I think I may beg, borrow, and plead that paying someone to come and clean my house gets worked into next years budget!