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Well I did gain some weigth this week but given how horrible I have been that number could have been a lot higher. I went to exercise class on tues and it felt good so I am working the next couple of days and honestly at this point I need sleep more than exercise but sun I have plans to go to the gym with my sil and sat I should be able to work out at home before we head over to my mom's. Mon the plan is to work out at home and then tues back to the YMCA for class. thus is the plan...

goals

So I achieved my first goal to lose 10 lbs- slightly bummed that it took me 2 months to do it but I made it. Only 18 lbs o go and I will only be overweight and not obese. The Wii told me the other day that my ideal weight is 126 (for a BMi of 22)- ha that will never in a million years actually happen. even when i was starving in Africa I only weight 145. I will be happy with maintaining 150 for awhile but first I must make it to 186. small steps..

haven't been so good about working out recently- Xander sat on my knee and bruised the hell out of it- he got it just right. Plus the kids and I were both sick as dogs last week so that is a real shot in the motivation wagon. Went on a long walk with some friends sat and am hoping with the nice weather that i can get a few more walks in. Sat is the big IKEA shopping trip so in all honesty that is a workout in and of itself!

How is it possible to be sleep deprived and have insomnia at the same time. it seems like a cruel joke somedays! I'm feeling better emotionally though these days. Frank and I had a long talk last week and I took a couple days off work to take care of the kids and myself and I do feel recharged. james has been sleeping better at night and I also think that extra sleep works wonders. Plus I got my hous cleaned up and that is a real boost to my mental state. I am hoping this up mood continues for awhile but I also feel like I go in patterns of feeling pretty good and then I wake up one morning feeling like crap. We've decided to send the kids to daycare and extra half day every week so that I have some time to get things done- run errands, clean, etc so I am hoping that will alleviate some of the simple stresses that just seemed to be adding up and weighing me down.